Last Semester Student

Like they said, everything must come to an end..

Remember Harry Potter movies where Harry Potter was some sort of abused (abuse is a strong word actually, but I don't know how to explain the Dursleys behavior towards him) by the Dursleys??

and In the last movie and book installment, and Harry felt some sort of berat hati to leave that place??

That's me right now..

If you ask me, KPTM Kuantan is not the best place I ever been to.. Memang kalau time cuti, rasa berat hati je nak balik.. and sorry to say, terkadang rasa boring duduk kuantan.. whenever I heard my semester break were shortened because of whatever reasons you gave me, I just got reaalllllllyyyyy upset.. I can't be understanding under that situation.. NO..!! I wanna go home, meet, my pillow, my bear, my comforter, my wifi and OF COURSE LAA FAMILY..

As much as I don't like KPTM, I have to admit, I feel kindda sad sometimes whenever the thought of me about to leave KPTM realllll sooonn..!!!

I believe there's a reason why Allah sent me here.. Everything happens for a reason.. Memang lah tak suka KPTM, tapi 3 TAHUN kot duduk sini.. tipu la takdok satu pun kenangan manis.. Kalau ada orang yang rasa pengalaman buruk je sepanjann 3 tahun tu, I don't know what to say laa..

Let put it this way, If I went to to UIA like I planned instead of KPTM, I might to be meeting the person who I'm supposed to meet, feel what I'm supposed to feel and learn what I'm supposed to learn..

Everything happens for a reasons

And I have to admit, typing this entry almost bring tears to my eyes..

Dekat sini la aku jumpa mia (next entry is about her), dekat sini la aku kenal banyak kerenah orang.. Actually, I'm not the type yg cepat perasan something pasal orang.. Thank God I have mia and tasha yang alert.. Haha..

I look at my life as a phase.. zaman sekolah rendah tamat and zaman sekolah menengah start.. bila tamat, kolej pulak start.. dividing my life into phases make me feel the time flies real fast.. it feels just like yesterday aku duk enjoy duduk sekolah rendah and now, I'm about to finish college (this is my last semester at kptm, ada 1 lagi semester for internship) and about to finish my study for good in a few years time.. 

Sama gak kalau kahwin.. everytime I heard my ex schoolmates kahwin, rasa macam tak percaya.. tak percaya yang someone yang dulu aku tengok macam budak budak sekarang dah nak kahwin.. and I feel kindda old.. hahha.. ye la, you must be mature enough to marry someone right??

Enough about marriage.. Honestly, I'm afraid of the thought of having to leave kptm soon.. I'm afraid of what lies in my future.. I'm afraid of the unknown.. And at the same time, I'm afraid that Mia might forget me.. See, there's so much fear in me..

hope for my last semester??

dapat Dean's List again.. actually, I'm not sure whether I can achieve that goal for this semester.. haha.. but, at least I have to try.. and I hope my friends mia, tasha also can get Dean's List as well..
aminn..

annyeonghikgaseyeo

with love,
Sarah

What Do You See in Me?

I know, in life, you must be like a ball.. When you hit the ground, you have to bounce back even higher.. But, THIS BALL is out of air right now..

To Heal A Broken Heart

You might find this post annoying but let's face ok.. Biarla orang nak cakap ape.. I just think that all teenagers should read and know this..


Ok, so here's something that you should know when you're heartbroken:

There's NO right way to heal your heart. It just did. Jika datang tanpa diundang, pergi pun tak perlu diusir..

Kadang2 kita rasa kita dah buat semua benda utk move on.. Delete gambar, delete number, block social network.. Semua dah.. But memories?? Feelings?? You have to bring yourself back to reality that you can't fix a broken heart that way..

Kita boleh nak elakkan dari buat or pergi tempat yang reminds us of that person, but let's admit it, tak pergi, tak buat ape ape pun still teringat..

Dah kalau hati dah suka, jahat mana pun orang tu, susah macam mana pun keadaan, memang kita nampak dia je.. Cinta tu buta.. Hahaha..

I know it hurts.. I've been there.. I'm still here actually.. I'm not going to share my story though.. It's kind of.. I don't know..

"Aku nak move on, tapi aku tak nak move on tapi aku tahu aku kena"

That phrase always haunting me.. Kadang2 rasa macam nak marah every single person yang sebut nama dia or cerita pasal dia.. But I know that it's not their fault that I have to go through this.. In my case, I'm responsible over what happened to me even though it's not my fault.. So memang banyak la penyesalan berlaku.. Kenapa la buat macam tu.. Kenapa la buat macam nie..


Dekat kptm nie, aku ada mia je tempat aku kongsi suka duka.. But I already reached a stage where aku dah penat sampai aku kadang2 terdiam.. Sebab apa lagi yg mia tak tahu pasal aku sedih?? Part sedih mana lagi yang aku tak cerita?? Tapi klau sedih tak terhingga tu, aku ulang balik je citer.. ahhah..

Tak salah nak bersedih.. In fact, mana ada orang tak sedih bila heart broken.. Seriously x sedih?? Tapi berpada pada la..

Like me, aku sedih tu sedih jugak lagi sedih bila aku sedar yang hidup "that someone" tu normal tak effect ape pun..
Tapi ada time aku try tak layan.. Fake my laugh or smile kadang2..

So, it's not wrong to be sad.. Just don't go overboard.. Cry when you feel like crying but remember to wipe away your tears, try to laugh and smile even though you know you're faking it sometimes.. And try to socialize with your friend like usual.. Just try to act normal..

And remember, what might be working for someone else might to be working for you.. Tak salah nak google or cari nasihat kawan nak tahu cara nak heal your heart.. Tapi tak yah la caya sangat..

Just try to act normal je sebenar point of the story.. Sebab heartbroken nie memang susah nak cari cure..

Nanite,
With love,
Sarah

Menerima Kau Pergi

Ku punya rasa tak terungkapkan
Hanya dalam memori hati dan benak ku simpan
Berat menerima kau pergi
Tanpa alasan juga kau buat aku.. Bertanya...

Beribu senandung yang ku nyanyikan
Pelipur lara basuhkan dahaganya sukaku
Kata termanis hanya untuk dia kekasih sepanjang hidup
Ku masih merindukannya.. Haa aa...

Apakah ku amat berarti di mata engkau
Telah ku ukir wajahmu lama dalam hati aku
Namun kau hilang dan takkan kembali juga
Ku merasa sepi, ku sendiri...

Beribu senandung yang ku nyanyikan
Pelipur lara basuhkan dahaga sukaku
Kata termanis hanya untuk kekasihku
Ku masih merindukannya.. Haa aa...

Apakah ku amat berarti di mata engkau
Telah ku ukir wajahmu lama dalam hati aku
Namun kau hilang dan takkan kembali juga
Ku merasa sepi, ku sendiri...

Namun kau hilang dan takkan kembali juga
Ku merasa sepi, ku sendiri...